🐍 2025/019 | JESCIE HALL - “THAT SIK LUV” | 5★

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Synopsis

Fornication is a sin. As it reads, we should flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. They teach us that these thoughts, these actions, are immoral. But that dark side that lives inside all of us, the true nature of man, drives us to seek the need that burns within, demanding to be set free. Deep inside of our bones lies that intrinsic need, one desperate to escape. An innate behavior, seemingly out of our control. One that screams for sins they tell us are condemning. Aero is the throat from which I scream. The dark parts of myself I want hidden from this world are all he sees when he gazes at me beneath yet another mask. He’s the demon drowning me in my own underlying desires. He may never stop. Not until I succumb to my truths, or die beneath the weight of his unrelenting grasp. Because according to him, the life I’ve been living is a hell far worse than death.

 

Chapters In Total

Prologue	:	01
Chapters	:	59
Epilogue	:	01
Pages	:	-

 

Note(s)

·       Standalone ·       Triggers: o   Stalking o   Religious trauma o   Desecration of religious artifacts o   Cult-like settings o   CNC (Consensual non-consent) o   Degradation o   Humiliation o   Voyeurism o   Exhibitionism o   Somnophilia o   Possessive behaviour o   Graphic depictions of violence / murder o   Various aggressive forms of sexual play o   BDSM

 

Others

1.    -

 

Destination

1.    Detroit

 

Song(s)/Band(s)

1.    -

 

Main Character(s)

Male	:	Jacob Erdman
Female	:	Briony Strait

 

Other Character(s)

Aero Westwood	:	aka Jacob Erdman Assassin
Briony Strait	:	First female Magnus Princeps at Covenant Academy
Mia	:	Briony’s best friend
Baret Strait	:	Briony’s brother Studying medicine at college
Callum Westwood	:	Saint’s father Aero’s biological father
Veronica Fields	:	Aero’s biological mother Killed by Callum
Saint Westwood	:	Magnus Princeps Aero’s half brother
Michael Donovan	:	Magnus Princeps
Jacob Erdman	:	Saint’s wingman
Bishop Caldwell	:	Bishop Paedophile
Alastor Abbott	:	Newly appointed governor Aero’s boss Briony’s biological father
Margaret Moore	:	Briony’s biological mother Killed by Alastor
Nox	:	Nightclub owner
Krista	:	Alastor’s assistant

 

Quote(s)

1.    My mother and father were both blonde, with tall and thin body types. My brother followed suit, and his height now towers over me, even though he’d filled out some. But, regardless, like a stained blob on an inkblot, I came out with hair as black as the night. 2.    Magnus Princeps 3.    My cries for help are ignored, and I lose all self-control. 4.    Money is power, even in religion. 5.    Faces of evil are everywhere you look, covered in their own paint, putting on the show of a civilized organizations. 6.    Taking lives is as easy as it sounds. It’s dealing with the weight of that conscience that seeps deep into the bones of the weak that’s difficult to conquer. 7.    We all have our talents, our chess moves that put us in a position to win. 8.    He thinks his own son messed that up by attempting to ruin the Induct ceremony himself, not realising his father had already paid off the deacon to end her. 9.    Leading her down to the devil’s lair by breaking her pure and innocent way of life will be my ultimate delight. 10. She has a real potential for vengeance. I just need to open her mind to the possibility. 11. “Shut up, Briony! I’m not supposed to damage your face, but I will if you give me a reason to,” he growls into my ear. 12. Hands that are soft from being pampered her entire life like the little fucking princess her parents made her out to be. 13. Rights and wrongs aren’t as straightforward when you’re on my side of the track. Morality is viable, something you must bend to your needs to survive. 14. This is how it goes. Anyone, especially the women in our community, is chastised for this. The men, not as much. Sex is not something we talk about aloud. In a marriage, that intimate part of the relationship stays behind closed doors, away from the topics of conversation. 15. As soon as you get the title of a town whore, there’s no saying your soul. The repercussions of such an act will cripple your credibility as a woman of the Lord in our church forever. 16. It’s practically unforgivable in their eyes. They’ll go through the acts of repentance, but never will they hold a place in the congregation as someone of proper respect or true worth. 17. This is where my internal beliefs conflict. I don’t see my God to be one not to forgive, but the church and its members make it well known that a stain like this on a woman is one that will never be washed out. 18. Maybe she thought if she didn’t go all the way, she’d still be saved. 19. Exploring that unknown element of urges and curiosities is making sense to me. I can’t even fault Erin for being curious. I can only blame her for getting caught. 20. The dirt swept beneath the rug of the men in power was piling up, and exposure was becoming more appealing than the simplicities of the job they paid me to do. 21. Serving times together will have you making friends you never thought you would, keeping company with all the wrong people. The people that find your creative criminal and shine it into something more intriguing and more talented than ever before. Prison is an education, one I gained many skills from. 22. No, these men pretend in the light of the day and unleash in the dark of the night. 23. Played out 24. “She’s bound to fuck up my money.” 25. Being the whore of a man of power has its advantages. Whispers of business always infiltrate these places and women like her love to keep their secrets. 26. Thinking of my girl as I find my release with my wholesome father’s closet whore. 27. My eyes are heavy as I feel the sleep catching up to me in my race against the clock. 28. “However,” … “If I catch you…” … “You surrender yourself to me entirely, allowing me to show you the light.” 29. Let the baptism begin. 30. Evil can come to you in many forms. 31. Curiosity is a double-edged sword. To an idiot, it can seem like a beautiful thing. To an intelligent individual, a dangerous temptation. 32. These people, they’re greasy, greedy, and money-hungry. More than ready to throw some money for crimes they think can’t touch them. I’m the gloves covering his filthy fucking hands, but he’s the one with dirt beneath his nails. 33. Forgiveness feels like an idea that will never come to fruition. 34. Everything he does is for a reason. A specific reason I’ve yet to figure out. 35. “I-I don’t want to disappoint him. But I’m scared. I-I’m confused.” 36. His black cassock is lifted to his waist, his belt buckle to his pants beneath, hanging open. 37. Have my eyes deceived me? Was Bishop Caldwell really about to molest this child behind closed doors with deceptions of the Lord’s will? My chest feels compressed, and that need to breathe is still a thought left in another life. 38. His deep-set wrinkle and slicked-back black hair 39. “You saw me assisting a child of God, Briony,” he interrupts… 40. The light shines on the crucifix of his black rosary 41. The walls are caving in, and darkness threatens to consume me entirely. I’m overwhelmed with the revelation, terrified of the man before me, who I’ve trusted for years. I’ve put all of my time, energy, and passion into an institution I believed in. a faith I’d follow to the end. Led none other than a wolf in sheep’s clothing. 42. “This isn’t an isolated incident.” 43. “For the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give you the victory” 44. “And we shall reign victorious,” his smooth voice purrs. 45. Only the most important men, along with their wives, congregate together to celebrate their success by marketing themselves to one another, praising each other for solidifying their pristine status. 46. In a room full of wealth, the rich decide to hide their identities for the evening, living out their demons for a night beneath the lies of a new mask. 47. Everyone plays a role in this sweet game of revenge. 48. “It’s warmer near the fire,” she whispers back. 49. Fake conversations with people who pretend to have an actual interest in who I am are really getting to me. 50. He’s using me. Molding me into something I’ve yet to understand. Whittling away at my core, he’s sharpening me to become the dagger he requires. Another man using me to his own advantage by ways of seduction and unfortunate truths. 51. I know I’m giving off flirtatious energy, but it feels good. It feels natural. Empowering. It makes me feel something I’ve never felt before. Raw power over a man. 52. That inherent need. That primal want. Even at our best, we try to fight it. Push it away, pretend it doesn’t exist. But we are humans, run by those hormones that beg for reproduction, that taunt us with the demand to rupture and bleed into something so natural before us. A connection of mind and body more powerful than the sins they tell us to deny. 53. I’m a King. 54. Violence is my love language, and she speaks my native tongue. 55. My heart breaks inside my chest as the anger boils. He’s completely convinced he deserves this. Whatever Caldwell has been spewing to him has set, and Brady sees whatever religious therapy Caldwell’s providing behind closed doors as his redemption. His salvation. He’s completely brainwashed by the powers that be. 56. These idiots have no idea that some women who work for Nox, the ones they look at as useless objects, are basically paid informants for him. 57. They marked me a murderer. Branded me the enemy because Callum Westwood knew a life that included me could never work. I was his greatest mistake. His greatest downfall. 58. Cold lies the innocent woman in the middle of the dirt of the alleyway alongside me. A world she never chose for herself, either. 59. Men, like himself, don’t get heir hands dirty with the crimes they commit. No trails left behind for the admirable. 60. But Briony Strait is just a stray like me. A mistake reinvented in ways that made her existence acceptable. 61. There is a God. There has to be. I have faith in that fact, and no one can take that away from me. What I fail to have faith in now are humans. Savages of the worst kind that surround us with true masks of deception. 62. He’d caught me in a trap. I was young and naïve. The perfect broken boy with no one to call my kin, who sought the support of a father-like figure in my life. He’d convinced me that what we did behind those church doors was for my benefit alone. For my salvation. 63. He took away my calm. My gentle. He owned it in the soft caresses he’d provided. The word love held new meaning. I love the way you receive your Lord. I love your pretty face covered in the Holy Spirit. I love you, son, my child of God, gifted to me. 64. She wanted to tell me she loved me. But the word love is useless. It’s nothing but four stupid letter set together and used by everyone. Actions are everything, and this exhibition and exchange of power and control means more than any fucking made-up word muttered behind closed doors. 65. I’ve never been addicted to drugs, but I’ve seen the harsh side of addiction destroy perfectly sound men. It caused them to lose focus, to fall into traps, to negotiate not only their livelihoods but also their entire 401k for one more hit. I’ve even seen them die for it. 66. killers. Real killers reside here. People who use and abuse their authority to control the masses. Using the disguise of an institution of love and faith to commit their sick acts of selfish crime. 67. There’s strange comfort in his hold. Maybe one of a life I used to know, where things made sense behind blind eyes. My naivety, providing some sort of strange familiarity to a time where my priorities were simply to gain the respect of my elders while developing my relationship with God and strengthening my faith. Now, as we hold each other, secrets and lies reside between both parties, death and deception providing the bricks to the wall that divides us. 68. Fuck all of them for allowing the disgusting cycle of abuse and death of the weak to continue. 69. What I wasn’t planning were the men on the heels of Baret, ready to shut this entire production down. 70. So you can continue to make your own rules. 71. I had her. I had her spread and ready, doing things to incriminate herself. 72. A slimy snake that slithered his way into the heart of a woman who tried to see the best in the worst of people. 73. Alastor. Baby. Mother. Church. Stray. 74. The demons that run the earth free, using their holiness as an express pass to abuse others. 75. He may not be as vicious as the likes of his father, Alastor, or even Bishop Caldwell, but his reluctance to stand up for what’s right was always his downfall. 76. I used to get so hard for those sweet little whimpers. 77. My mission had always been to unveil the broken nature of the system built on lies, unearthing the horror within. Given the throat through which I was allowed to scream. 78. They never wanted me. They wanted obedience to keep the train of deceitful power in motion. 79. The thrill of knowing no child would be violated so violently filled my heart as I watched Aero cut it off, the screams of torture echoing throughout my body before being muffled out by his own shriveled, bloodied dick. 80. Evil comes in many forms, often masked by those that proclaim holiness. Some evil lurks through life as a bystander, watching and silently subjecting to the torment of others by turning a blind eye to their pain. Some evil isn’t evil at all. It’s dark energy coming full circle, granting vengeance on those who ache for power over the weak. 81. But we refuse to be held down by the weight of sin created by men of a different time and circumstance. Our lives are our own to live, and societal restrictions to human nature that feel natural, pure, and simply organic can no longer contain us. We should be able to love without judgment. Without restraint. Without men trying to rule us with their perceptions of truth. 82. Brady and his family made a statement after the announcement of Bishop Caldwell’s disappearance. One brave child brought out the courage in others, and before they knew it, the town was lit up like a Christmas tree with statements from different victims coming out of the woodwork. 83. We weren’t naïve. We knew somewhere, evil of the same sort would rise again, and vicious cycle of control and abuse would continue on again one day. One dynasty at a time, I told Aero, as we lit the flames together. 84. We’ll continue our fight for those too weak to fight for themselves while still promoting the freedom of beliefs and varying religions. As it stands, we both still have our faith. A faith in something more powerful than anything man could conjure. 85. My heart is owned by the man that saved me by giving me the voice to save myself. A connection like ours isn’t meant for love stories. It’s tragic and tarnished in its root. Full of dark and disturbing desires that tradition and societal normalities cannot contain. A devotion to another, grown through the dirt of tragedies of the past. It’s the poison of a new flower, opening in its toxic bloom to a world that isn’t ready to accept the dark beauty of its daggered thorns. Transmitting a rare, yet bitter illness that seeps its way into your bloodstream, holding your ransom to your desires, captivating and controlling only by devouring the fallacies of who we thought we were from the inside out. It’s sick love. And it’s entirely ours to own.

 

BOOK JOURNEY

Thoughts

(1) It is highly likely impossible, realistically speaking. How can you have hair that is as black as the night while your parents are blond?! Are you adopted? That just doesn’t make sense. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (2) The leaders of the next generation of gospel shepherds in line for the coveted bishop title. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (3) So, is he, the deacon, attempted to kill Briony? Because of her gender of gaining herself a seat as Magnus Princeps? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (8) So, the deacon, really, is trying to kill her! My goodness. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (9) Wow…kay…I guess? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (11) Oh man, is someone ordering him to do so? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (21) Now I’m curious, what makes you do times in prison? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (23) No Longer Interesting or Effective: If an idea, trend, or activity is "played out," it means it has become old, overused, or no longer interesting. For example, "The trend of fidget spinners is played out." Source: Chatgbt —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (24) How? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (26) So, Callum Westwood is Aero’s father and it makes Saint his brother! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (28) Ahh… Now’s the beginning, isn’t it? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (29) Another words: Let the fun begin. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (34) No wonder he says you’re good. You’re intuitive. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (35) No… no no no… (heart sinks…) please don’t let it be the one that I have in mind… —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (36) My holy gracious!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (37) Aero was right. I thought they went for prostitution. There is actually something sinister behind… —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (38) He IS OLD!!! Oh my holy molly! Who knows how long he has been doing this! For Goodness sake! This is terrifying! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (39) How DARE YOU!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (40) Oh the irony! How dare he do such a thing!!!! URGH! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (41) This statement hit the nail on the head! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (42) This is sickening!!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (44) Let the games begin. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (48) Now she knows. And she feels safe with him. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (57) Who is your mom? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (58) Who’s she? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (60) Where are her biological parents? Or who? —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (62) You really are a piece!!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (63) The love is tainted! You pervert!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (69) What? Baret was ready to shut the production down?! That’s… wow! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (70) Wow! He really mean it! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (71) You piece of …!!! Aero was right about you!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (72) He is! Urgh! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (73) Dang! Alastor is her biological father?! Planning to kill his own blood?! That’s sick! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (76) URGH! Just destroy him already!!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (79) Serves you right, Bishop!!!! —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (82) Thank you for your bravery, Brady. —————— ฅ՞• •՞ฅ ——————— (85) It truly is a sick love. A sick love that only belong to them and no one else.

 

Reading Experience

The story is so intense and heavy. I have to admit, I can only read one chapter a day starting from chapter 17. This story is too dark and it makes me feeling nauseous. Goodness, I even have to have mental preparation before starting a new chapter. Why? Because one of the plot is about abusing young children using the name of religion! Halfway through, I don’t even think I can stomach this anymore. It is sickening and disgusting on how people use their authoritative power to manipulate those around them to get what they want! URGH! Near the end, I just had to know that Aero and Briony had brought down the institution. Free people from the sick power. I’m happy with the ending to say the least. What I love about this story is what Aero and Briony had, the love between them is so strong. Like what they said, “the emotion is too strong that love is beneath it.” This relationship is too broken that it works between them. That’s good for me. Lastly, aww… I can’t miss the sex. The sex is so intense and sooooo hot. I think I sweat a lot reading these parts. LOL.

 

Question(s)

1.    What causes Aero to go to jail? à Murder accusation 2.    Who is Aero’s mother? à Veronica Fields, Callum’s mistress. 3.    Why Callum killed Briony’s mother? à It’s Alastor that killed Briony’s mother since she was going to expose him to have sex outside of marriage which is against the church law.

 

Three Most Important Concepts in This Book

1.    People decipher what something means.

 

Suitable For People Who

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Reading Start and End Dates

Start	:	20.05.2024
End	:	15.01.2024

 

Total Reading Duration

19

Hours

10

Minutes

 

Reading Timeline [In Chapter(s)]

20.05.2024	:	Prologue à 04
21.05.2024	:	04 à 04
31.05.2024	:	04 à 04
15.06.2024	:	05 à 06
16.06.2024	:	07 à 07
17.06.2024	:	08 à 08
18.06.2024	:	09 à 09
19.06.2024	:	10 à 11
20.06.2024	:	12 à 12
01.07.2024	:	13 à 13
02.07.2024	:	14 à 14
04.07.2024	:	15 à 15
09.07.2024	:	16 à 16
10.07.2024	:	17 à 17
11.07.2024	:	18 à 18
14.07.2024	:	19 à 19
31.08.2024	:	20 à 20
15.09.2024	:	21 à 23
16.09.2024	:	24 à 24
17.09.2024	:	25 à 25
18.09.2024	:	26 à 26
12.12.2024	:	27 à 29
21.12.2024	:	29 à 29
22.12.2024	:	30 à 43
23.12.2024	:	44 à 45
25.12.2024	:	46 à 46
27.12.2024	:	47 à 47
06.01.2025	:	48 à 48
07.01.2025	:	49 à 49
08.01.2025	:	50 à 50
09.01.2025	:	51 à 51
14.01.2025	:	52 à 52
15.01.2025	:	53 à Epilogue

 

Tags

Fiction; Contemporary; Romance; Suspense

 

Pace

·       Slow

 

Spiciness

·       🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

 

Rating

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Notes

Reading Experience

·       Plot and Content: The appeal of the storyline, the depth and interest of the content, and the relevance and accuracy of the information presented. ·       Language and Style: The fluidity and beauty of the writing, and whether the author’s style aligns with the reader's preferences and expectations. ·       Characterization and Development: The dimensionality and vividness of the characters, and whether their development feels deep and credible. ·       Pacing and Structure: The appropriateness of the pacing, the coherence of the structure, and whether the plot progresses smoothly. ·       Emotional Resonance: Whether the reader can connect with the emotions, themes, or viewpoints presented in the book. ·       Visual Presentation: The book’s design, including layout, font, illustrations, and cover design, and how these elements enhance the reading experience. ·       Personal Impact: The influence of the book on the reader’s thoughts, emotions, or life experiences. ·       Reading Comfort: The comfort of reading, considering factors like paper quality, book weight, and the reading environment.

 

Pace

·       Fast Pace: The plot progresses rapidly, with frequent events occurring, creating a sense of tension and urgency for the reader. Typically, these books have short paragraphs and chapters, with concise and brisk language, and frequent conflict and suspense. Examples include thrillers or action-adventure novels. ·       Medium Pace: The plot develops at a moderate speed, neither too rushed nor too slow. These books usually feature a balanced progression of story and character development, with a relatively even writing style. Many literary or commercial novels may have this pace. ·       Slow Pace: The plot advances slowly, often focusing on the characters' inner worlds, environmental descriptions, or nuanced emotional portrayals. These books typically have longer paragraphs and chapters, with a more complex writing style and a lot of information. Literary classics or works with intricate psychological depictions often exhibit a slow pace.

 

Spiciness

·       0★ No Spiciness Completely non-romantic and non-suggestive; suitable for all ages. ·       1★ Very Mild Occasional flirtation or light hints; very tame and appropriate for most readers. ·       2★ Mild Some romantic tension or innuendo; suitable for young adult readers but no explicit content. ·       3★ Moderate Noticeable romantic or sexual themes; suitable for mature readers with some emotional depth. ·       4★ Spicy Frequent and more explicit romantic or sexual content; intended for adult readers with significant emotional stakes. ·       5★ Extremely Spicy Highly explicit content with detailed sexual scenes or intense emotional drama; strictly for mature audiences.

 

Ratings

·       0.0: Unreadable or offensive. ·       0.5: Extremely poor; frustrating and unenjoyable. ·       1.0: Poorly written with little redeeming quality. ·       1.5: Very weak; minimal positives, mostly disappointing. ·       2.0: Some merits but overall disappointing. ·       2.5: Slightly above disappointing; some redeeming qualities. ·       3.0: Solid but flawed; enjoyable but forgettable. ·       3.5: Good; has engaging moments but still some flaws. ·       4.0: Very good; well worth reading with a few minor issues. ·       4.5: Excellent; impactful and nearly perfect, with just a few minor flaws. ·       5.0: Exceptional; a must-read that stays with you.